So the title practically explains it.
Vert 21 Male
Noir 21 Male
Me 21 Female
I, My BFF(Vert) and My Ex(Noir) were mutual friends.
Recently I found out about the truth of How Noir ended becoming my Boyfriend. He was talking to some other guy on his phone completely unaware that I was listening to him. He was telling him How he must get rid of the competition and How only the results matter, not the methods. And he basically began narrating about how he betrayed Vert and got me.
I always thought Noir was a romantic, I mean he wrote me a long poem to ask me to prom and How he was always very protective of me. I felt good. I felt loved.
Apparently he was not. He had a bet with the cool kids that he’d be the first one to sleep with me and take my virginity. How he used Vert’s poems and told him how I wouldn’t be interested in going to prom with him.
Then he slowly began poisoning me against him, About he was a creep and a problem to our relationship and How I should break off any contact with him.
I was popular in Highschool and later College and word basically spread about How Vert was a creep.
Vert never showed up at the Prom. He exited all of my classes. I began avoiding him because I thought he was a creepy stalker and I shouldn’t want anything to do with a guy like him.
When I learnt about this last week, I immediately cut off my ex and All I could think of was I wanted to apologize to Vert. I always had a little crush on him but I feel it is too late now…
I fucked up too bad this time, Vert always was there to stop me before, I feel terrible about what I have done.
Vert basically dipped in the college Social life. He used to be so bubbly. I have tried contacting him but he hasn’t replied. I tried sending him a friend request on facebook and Instagram.
I couldn’t even recognise him on his profile, he has lost a lot of weight(gotten in shape) and he’s written some pretty philosophical stuff about life and death and How life is meaningless which tbh scared me.
I hope I am not too late.
Tldr: I hurt my bff who actually loved me, and fell in love with my manipulative ex who poisoned me against him and used my bff’s resources as his own.
What I exactly want? I want him back so bad. I want to tell him I love him too. That I was fucking stupid and I want to apologize.