It still haunts me. My blood brother finally left my life after being arrested for physically attacking my mom and chasing us out the house with a knife.
For years he would brutally beat me and abuse me. We are almost 3 years apart and he use to kiss me between the ages of 3-4. He abused me physically, verbally and mentally from Age – 9 – 18. At times, he tried to kill me. My mom did nothing even If I tried to call the cops and it only became a problem when he hit her.
My step brother raped me several times when I was 4-7 – during my mom’s 3 year marriage. He also “molested” my blood brother by humping him so he claims.
Although, my blood brother went on and raped my male cousin who was the same age as me for years. He admitted that he didn’t know why he raped our cousin.
There was no intercourse between him and my step brother. My step brother would also set me up for severe beatings from him Dad.
My step dad use to beat me severely to the point my arm has been damaged for years and the beating was when I was 5-6.
I am now 25 and my abusers are officially gone, but it all still haunts me. No one understands and I feel like mom does not care about the extent it has affected me.
I am addicted to porn. I was hospitalized at 15. I have a bad anger problem and I cannot have a normal relationship. I never had sex with a man even If I wanted to. I think sex with a man will feel like rape. I never even had sex with a woman.
I am freak and everyone knows it.
It doesn’t help that we were poor. Please, tell me my mom fucked up.
What didn’t help my child hood after my step brother and his dad was gone was my brother developed a deep hatred jealousy for me and would tell his friends that I “sucked dick,” and fucked dudes for free (in reference to my childhood rape).
No one knows how bad it is. He also called me a Dyke several times.
I want them all gone.