It’s been 3 months since it all happened. I was fine at first but it’s been really hard emotionally and mentally this month. I always get this sadness and guilt overcome me. So badly I can’t sleep at night and I just cry for hours – I constantly feel like a bad person.
I feel guilty that I broke up with him because “something was missing” – I couldn’t pinpoint what it was, I couldn’t explain it, something just wasn’t there. He was the best boyfriend and did everything anyone could do, but it would always not be good enough for me and expected more and more and more. I felt bad that I couldn’t give him 100% of my love so decided to break things off because it wasn’t fair on him. He said he didn’t mind but that killed me inside. He definitely deserves a girl who loves him with all of their heart and I felt like I couldn’t give him that.
Sometimes I question whether I gave up too early? – we were dating for over 2.5 years. I feel like I didn’t treat him well enough when we were together, I didn’t appreciate him enough. I feel guilty that I can’t reciprocate the love that he had for me – why couldn’t I have just accepted it.
I want to reach out to him to make sure he’s ok but that would be very selfish of me because if there’s no hope, what’s the point in showing care, he’s probably just trying to move on.
I feel so trapped and lost. I hate this feeling. I don’t know what to do. I know I am being self destructive but I don’t know how to stop. I am literally going crazy.
TL;dr how to stop feeling guilty about breaking up with boyfriend