I had casual sex with this girl every once in a while. Well one of those nights, the condom didn’t do it’s job. It broke. We didn’t notice. Bad day. A few weeks later. She’s saying she’s missed her period. I’m talking to her about options go get tested. Look at what we need to do. She doesn’t want to keep it. So we were looking at if the plan b pill or it’s counterparts. This is where I became extremely frustrated. For some reason she wouldn’t use conventional means to deal with this. Which we both wanted to do. Instead. She took a large dose of her birth control because someone in the medical field told her it would work apparently. It didn’t work. She had a pregnancy test that was positive. So now we are both sweating. We had no intentions of being serious together. It was casual sex. We didn’t really like each other outside of that. But now we are past other means. The only option is a abortion. So after weeks of convincing and hoping she understands the gravity of the situation we go and decide to split it. Disgusting. It made my gut wrench to be in this situation at all. But we do it. She goes in. There’s a hiccup. They want to send her home. I’m worried if she goes home she will get cold feet. So I talk to the nurses. She goes back again. Everything’s done. She comes out. Says it’s done. Says the doctor said it was abnormally implanted. Which is probably either due to her endometriosis or the stupid way she took the pills. Either way. Following through with the pregnancy would’ve been bad. So all in all we made the right decision medically. Even though initially that wasn’t our intentions. We can’t stand each other now. Had a huge falling out a ways later. Huge bullet dodge. But it still lingers in my mind. I still have reservations that this is a taboo think in my life that I can’t talk to with anyone. I got to counseling weekly for other issues. And I’d like to work through it with my counselor. But. The judgment I’m scared to receive from it is preventing me from doing it. So I guess this is just a guilt I have to live with for the rest of my life. Even though I truly have nothing to be guilty for.